November 9th, 2016
I was told today I have Parkinson’s. I know I have written plenty about having this disease and my struggles in the past, but today it is different. My wife and I were having our morning coffee glued to the news and reading different political rants on Facebook and the phone rang; it was 10:35am.
Up until now I have never had a definitive test only a diagnosis. I had recently traveled to the Mohammed Ali Parkinson’s center in Phoenix and had been seen by a specialist. My test results were in today along with the Presidential elections. Deep down inside I already knew I had Parkinson’s, but have always felt it was brought on or intensified by a
controversial cervical disc replacement in my neck from several years ago. The surgical implant in my neck has given me continuous problems. I’ve always maintained a sliver of hope that it was at the core root of my problems. The girl on the phone was very pleasant, but relayed the Parkinson’s DAT test and scan on my brain was definitive and showed positive for Parkinson’s, so that was good. —- In which, I could only respond, “Well I don’t think it’s good at all.” I could tell she immediately realized her unintended delivery mistake. I tried to put her at ease by letting her know it was not her fault as she meekly apologized. She asked if I had any questions in which I could only respond, no and hung up.
I thought I had properly prepared myself, but I hadn’t. Kristin watched as tears slowly built up and filled my eyes then streamed down my face as she rubbed my arm. I could only continuously recite, “I’ll never give up all I know is know how to do is fight.” I ask my friends and family especially today, to pray for peace and healing for a suffering world. Pray for the leaders, scientists and for a healthcare system that will not block research of a possible cure of this this horrific disease or any other in exchange for financial greed. Only God and the power of Love and positivity have the ability to heal. We all have the ability of compassion.