10/16/2016
I have this problem; I think no matter what it is, if I can just figure find out what’s actually wrong I can fix it. Those who know me best are aware that I’ve always been a worrier. However, I have always tried to do do the right thing; sometimes to a fault. I’ve always been better than most, but never quite good enough to be the best. I would have never imagined this mentally and attitude would include and possibly contribute to Parkinson’s.
It was decided within me internally the day I was diagnosed, I would 
fight this disease with every breath I take. Some may call that denial, but I’ll call it determination. I work every day to be the best I can be to fight this demon, but mostly just to try and see what normal feels like again and delay further progression. A good majority of the time I feel physically ill, but I do have good moments. I really could never have fathomed how terribly difficult this was going to be both physically and mentally in every single aspect of my life and personal relationships. Pretending things are not hard would be me living in denial. I’m trying to make sure I never let my children see me give up and only be the best father I can be.
When I say it’s hard, I’ve had more failures than success, but I continue to grow and find little victories for myself along the way. I give all credit to God for my successes as his plan for me continues to develop. I can only try and become a better person with Parkinson’s than I would have been without it. It gives me joy and motivation that others have been inspired by some things what I have written and done, truly its all from the heart and for my family. Pray for a cure
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