July 16, 2016
I wouldn’t say I’ve been inspired by others using exercise to combat Parkinson’s, I would just say I’ve been further motivated. I throw myself head first into whatever I do and I’ve recently focused all my
energy into boxing and cross fit type exercise. When it gets cold again I’ll put back on the hockey skates and try to grind it out there. My biggest problem is through my exercise I release rage and by releasing rage it promotes injuries. I don’t know how not to give 110% and can’t seem to set and define my new limits.
My body hurts, I mean it really hurts. Exercise is not something that’s new to me so I’m not just going through the initial soreness phase. After all, exercise is supposed to slow the progression of Parkinson’s and who knows what kind of shape I’d be in if I’d hadn’t tried to stay so physically active; but it’s becoming a boundary for me in which I can not seem to define but I think might need to be. I’m constantly pushing myself into physical pain and injuries trying to heal my body. The dystonia in my neck and back keep me in a pinched nerve state flux in-which I don’t think it’s remotely possible to win. Healing always seems to become the most recent focus just so I can start to exercise again on this seem-full never ending painful roller coaster.
By me pretending not to have Parkinson’s all those years by staying physically active, I tried to and still did all those things I just really just can’t do anymore. Finally admitting this just seems to be quiet possibly my biggest failure. Or can I possibly be putting myself in danger just by pushing too far? Now my exercise is more specifically focused to
combat Parkinson’s, but if there’s a lesson individually for me; exercise may slow the progression of The disease but it’s never going to stop it. I’ll fight this demon with my very last breath but to accept I’m never really going to get any better is still a very big and difficult pill to swallow. NGU
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