Been awhile since I have really written anything, but so much has happened. My daughter has had a 
milestone birthday and got her ears pierced, and my twins boys and are turning 7 and losing teeth. I’ve also made some real decisions about treating/fighting this disease, I’m worth it!
I have always thought I can fix anything if I just can figure out what’s wrong. I now know what’s wrong. I still think I alone can control my ultimate outcome. I believe in some ways I have made myself sick by worrying myself to death. I’ve obsessed almost daily about losing a job when all I’ve ever been told is how good I am at it. I struggle to fully believe and understand God has a plan for me even with all the signs showing up all around me.
Through his glory and grace I am beginning to really see his plan for me and this disease by putting all the right people in my life, and to tell my story!
While lying in bed a few weeks ago, I mentioned to my wife I needed to have some dental work done and a tooth crowned. I have not had the work done because of the costly expense. Kristin said, “Knowing you it will fall out when you’re on a business trip, you have the worst luck.” Which is unfortunately true, random thing happen to me 
Recently, I have been getting signs that indicating I can control my destiny, which is true and false all in the same breath. Through God’s grace and power I am healed he is just showing me the way; I need to expand. Positive thinking is something I’m not good at and as I change my mindset my true healing begins. Having Parkinson’s is like having a constant violent storm throughout your body. I continue to find the eye of the storm randomly only through proper thinking along my journey. Only God can heal, and by this I mean that through him all things are possible.
When you struggle to believe in anything it’s hard to believe in something you can’t physically you can’t see and can only feel. Feeling his presence gets me into the eye of the storm. The calm of healing and peace in moments only happen when I can just STOP worrying, my arch-enemy! I have been so blessed recently by God 
putting the right people in my life during my times of true despair. My negativity serves absolutely no purpose! I am convinced now more than ever I am on a journey to show others how to defeat this Demon called Parkinson’s.
I have to stay the course, if it ain’t broke don’t fix it, if it is – Never Give Up! There’s no cure for Parkinson’s, but that doesn’t mean anything to me at this point! There are 2 different kind of people with this disease, I am the kind that fights it physically mentally and spiritually every day. It’s my journey, I’ve never been so convinced! Today, I won TWO raffle prizes at a local event. I never win anything, at least until now…….
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